Patience

Patience. This is something I have not much of. 

I would call myself one of the most least patient people in my life.  For starters, my mom and i just started a puzzle like 30 min ago with my uncle, and i quit after the edge was done because it was frustrating me that i couldn't find pieces.  Well, thats not the point.  

Waiting on the Lord.  That is where I might lack the most patience.  I struggle to make decisions simply because I am too impatient to sit still and listen.  Then, I get impatient about not making the decision and it all goes down the drain anyways.  Waiting is something that gives me so much strength when i do it.  If i pray a focused prayer and get on my knees before the Lord, he hears me.  That is truth that I cling to with all of my might. Then, after I pray, I must sit still and listen to the Lord's answer.  I must be still and know he is God, not be anxious and restless.  I have a peace knowing he hears me and answers, but I am impatient.  I cannot sit still enough and listen. I want it right out of thin air to smack me in the face and know what my answer is.  My sisters will tell you how stubborn I am.  I have to sit and think things through on my own and wrap my mind around it before I will literally say a word.  I am known by a few people to say way too much and by others to not talk about things at all.  I think it come from my inability to rest and let things just happen.  This is nothing new, but it has definately been difficult for me to make adult decisions because it terrifies me stiff  to make important decisions.  I just need to be still and patient and know the Lord is taking care of me.

"Direct my footsteps according to your word: let no sin rule over me." Pslam 119:133

My footsteps are guided and I will be ok.  It is time to just live and let the Lord have control.  I love my life and I am truely blessed beyond measure.  I am content to rest in the joy from my Lord, my father who has given me new life.